in terms of personal growth, is when I surrendered Personal Will to Divine Will. ⠀I have a strong will, I want what I want and my tenacity is that of a dog with a bone.
The biggest leaps I have ever made in terms of personal growth, is when I surrendered Personal Will to Divine Will. ⠀
I have a strong will, I want what I want and my tenacity is that of a dog with a bone. If I want something I become fixated, I will plot and plan until I have it. This is a game to me, it’s entertaining. But there have been times in my life, where it didn’t matter what strategy I applied, it was just not happening. It didn’t matter how ferociously I’d knock on doors, they were all shut. ⠀
It’s like divine intervention.. you’re convinced something is for you, but the entire universe keeps it away from you. Do you know that feeling?⠀
With an MBA in my pocket, I used to work in the corporate..which seems like another lifetime now. I was unhappy, because I knew deep down that a career in finance/investment wasn’t what I came here to do. But I didn’t have the tools to create change. With tools I mean - the conditioning, the mindset. I was stuck doing something I disliked, and resigned to the idea that it’s now too late to change. ⠀
Since the age of 15, I would study psychology, hypnotherapy, and every healing modality on the side, but call it a hobby. I had learned that a hobby is something you love doing, and ‘work’ is something you dislike but accept as a means to afford the life you want. But divine intervention happened - my Soul had a different plan. I lost everything. I resigned from my job thinking I could find another one easily (which was always the case) but this time, nobody was responding to my applications. A voice in my head kept nudging me in a different direction.. “it’s time you start doing what you love, what you came here to do.” I didn’t want to hear it, I wanted to go back to a secure job because that’s what I had been programmed with around ‘security’. I call that period of my life, the battle of Ego vs Soul. ⠀
The smaller part of me (ego) was clinging onto the very thing, that the larger part of me (Soul) had already outgrown.⠀
This battle went on for 1.5 years.. that’s how much I struggled with surrender. Eventually I was tired of fighting my destiny, I had to accept the change. Continued in comments